Sunday, March 30, 2008

"The Most Wonderful of the Wonderful"

"To accomplish great things we must not only act, but also dream; not only plan, but also believe."
-Unknown


Today actually went really well, I stayed at my parents with my friend Dallas (left) and went to church with her and my parents to my own ward. It is my last sunday in this ward, since the semester is ending and I'm moving and not living where I have been. I'm waiting to find out if I'll be working on a Dude Ranch this summer or stay where I am and work full time. Either way, I'm really positive about either one! I know that Heavenly Father know's what is best for me and that I will get where I am suppose to be where ever I am.
Today I really felt amazing. I felt like my life was going as it should, I didn't feel regret, pain, and guilt. I felt happy, joy, peacefulness. I felt like I am doing the right things in this life. That I am doing what the Lord wants me to and I am feeling that feeling of happiness. That I am drawing nearer to him. The testimonies that where born today seemed to give me comfort. We are all going through change. We all thought that our semester or season would be one way and we would get to certian things at certian times, but every single person that bore their testimony today, testified that there lives are nothing that they planned on. That they have gone through so much and have trials come into there lives they never planned on, and I thought to myself, this is exactly what I needed to hear. I needed to know I'm not alone, and I know i'm not. I know that we all have different trials in life and that we all grow in different ways and we experience them in different ways because each of us have our own characteristics, and that we need to experience stuff the way we are suppose to, to grow and strengthen our testimonies the way we are suppose too. I learned so much today, and I am not afraid of the things that are in my future, I know now that the things that are in my future are there for a reason and I am excited to experience them, no matter how hard, or easy or just nice, I am willing for any experience I am given, and will learn as much as I can from each one.
Another exciting thing today was that I got to take some fun picture's of our two new Yorky puppies! Daisy and Duke are there names! One is my parents and the other is going to My sister-in-law and brother. There are adorable! Here are the picture's we took today! Enjoy!









Saturday, March 29, 2008

Peacefulness

So today ended up starting bad, but ending quite well....I have missed a certian someone a lot these past few day's and today I finally got to talk to them. It felt so good! I Think most of us know what it feels like to miss someone, either if they are gone for a few days, months, years, moments, or even forever. I know that it's hard, but for some reason after talking to them I felt a peace, yeah I cried, but they weren't tears of sorrow, they were tears of Joy knowing that all is good. All will work out the way that is should. I know that Heavenly Father has a plan for all of us, and that if we just believe in him all will work out. I keep remind myself that and the truth is that is the one thing that keeps me going right now. I've made plenty of mistakes in life, some i've learned from and grown from and some I know I just didn't need to happen, but they did and I still learned something from those bad experiences. I don't think life would be worth it if we didn't experience trails and most of all face our fears. Right now I think I am facing my biggest fear, leaving everything I love and want behind to make things right in my life. I know I couldn't have made this decision without that other person whom I Love more than anything, but I believe we both see the potential we both have in ourselves and we need to let it out, find it all. I've already found so much in just a week. Although this may be one of those hardship's i've been told I will go through, I'm thankful for it. I'm thankful for this chance to grow, spiritually and mentally. Life has so much ahead, we think to much about the moment, we life in the moment, and right now at this moment, i'm realizing that it's not the moment that counts, its that future! That's what I'm fighting for, for myself. To make the future easier, if not easier, better then it was. I know that there is so much ahead of me in this life and I want to be prepared as I can possibly be, and this chance that I have been given is the one chance I will look back on and be so thankful for, even if I am not right at this moment, I will be, and I will thank everyone around me who will help me grow and become that women that my Heavenly Father has in store for me!
I had a great day, spending time with family I think is one of the roots to all happiness in life. Without my family, and friends, my life would be so lonely. I am thankful for them EVERY DAY! Without them I wouldn't be that women I have become, and am still becoming! I want them to know how much I love all of them! Even if they are far, I think of them, and each one of them gives my light to keep going. And my friends, no matter how far, or how close, or how distant we have become, they have touched my life, and will continue you too. I hope I have become one of those people as well that has touched them! I am forever thankful for them! Never lose sight of your family and friends, they are the ones to fall back on when life throws you around and you don't know where else to go! I've learned that and will always turn to them, as well as my father in heaven whom I know always knows what I need. I hope all of you have had a GREAT day and have A GREAT night! I miss you all with all my heart, and know I am always thinking of you all!

"Help Thou My Unbelief"

So I got home pretty late tonight and I have made it a goal to read my scriptures and really ponder what they are saying and teaching me. So I read and every night I have gotten answers to things that I have been struggling with during the day. Tonight It really hit home when I started reading from one of my books for my covenant marriage classes "Drawing Heaven into your Marriage" by: H. Wallace Goddard, PhD. I feel like everytime I do read it I find something new, and well tonight I read over what I already read and WOW, it hit home exactly what is going on in my life right now and exactly what I needed to hear.
He starts out by describing the story of the father who brings his son to Jesus, asking him to heal him. Jesus ask's what is wrong, and the father say's he has a "dumb spirit" and then Jesus states a very good question that I never got before "If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth." (Mark 9:23) So the question is do we believe in Him?
The father cried, and told Jesus, "Lord, I believe, help thou mine own belief." We are all at this same dilema all the time "Lord, I believe, I want to believe. I am trying to believe. Will you give life to my imperfect efforts to believe?" Then the Lord dispatched the evil from the child. Jesus will gladly dispatch the evil from our lives, when our faith, even our budding faith, invites him. When we do have that evil spirit depart, we feel like "whats left?" and that is exactly how I have been feeling this last week, I have given everything, shared everything and know I feel as if "WHAT IS LEFT!" but then I read on and knew this in my heart that Jesus will take us by the hand and lift us up as we arise to a new life. I feel like I have this new life, this new adventure, this new chance to make things work and be perfect as they can be. It takes faith I have learned to in Jesus Chrise to remove eveil from our hearts and bring them to vibrant life.
One more quote by Ezra Taft Benson hit home even more as I read on. He says "When we put God first, all other things fall into their proper place or drop out of our lives. Our love of the Lord will govern the claims for our affection, the demands on our time, the interests we pursue, and the order of our priorities. We should put God ahead of everyone else in our lives." That's a powerful idea: When we put God first, everything else falls into it's proper place! I believe that If we have faith and give ourselves completley to the Lord everything in life will be in its place and be as it should be and we will have that feeling and comfort that all is well! I have felt that this week, I have felt that peace and comfort and I know now that I can never live without that feeling agian. It is better then any feeling I have felt in my life to know that everything is OK and that life will go as it should and that whatever has happened in my life lately is for a reason and that things will be better in the future if i just believe in him!

Friday, March 28, 2008

Why Little Miss Obsessive?

So you're all probably thinking why In the world did she pick Little Miss Obsessive as her tittle for your blog? Well, there are plenty of reasons.........I am obsessive about many of things....starting with small things such as what to wear and does it look right, to never stop thinking about how to make things right! It's disease I believe I have! Not bad, I'm still learning to deal with it:) It's not this pshyco obsessive you are thinking, I swear to you, it's just a small obsession that I have will things in my life and you'll learn more about it once you continue to read about my life and how crazy it is! I thought that my life was pretty boring, but really it isn't! it's actually quite interesting if you knew me! So, I thought a blog would be fun to share my experiences with friends, family, love, cooking, dancing, horses, and life! It may be boring to some, but at least it will help me find myself and see how normal my life actually be! So here is goes....My life is now for the taking, everyone can now experience a bit of me! Maybe you'll find out things you never knew, or maybe you'll get something else is what I hope! Have fun! I'm headed to get Thai food and watch a movie with some friends!